Valentines day, where do I even start. We made time for each other. He made time for me. Everything was perfect. I woke up at 6:30, just to get ready. He picked me up at 8:30, just like he said he was going to. I got into the car, chocolates were on my seat, for me! we drove to perkins for breakfast. He went to the trunk and got me a bouquet of flowers. We ate so much that I felt I was going to barf. and he gave me the most beautiful necklace I've ever seen and he says "it's from ben moss" I didn't expect anything more than flowers and the breakfast. After that we headed back to my house and we got there at 9:45. everything was perfect, despite the fact that he had to leave at 11. But everything was perfect. He makes me happy, I make him happy. It was just us in our little world, just like I want it to be. Nothing could have brought me down yesterday. I was temporarily the happiest girl in the world.

but now, I just feel lonely. Like yesterday is in the past. I miss him more than ever right now. My heart hurts, but I don't want it to. only he can make this pain go away. I just want cuddles and kisses.. forever. I just want to fast forward time where we're settled with our careers and we make a cute family (if possible). Please, I just want to be happy.

My boyfriend is so good to me. I've always been the one to love more. ALWAYS. It feels good to know that I am loved and probably to the extent, more than I love him. I've never, EVER in my whole life have I experienced so much pain, so much happiness, so much anger and so much love towards another human being. I am a difficult person to be with, and he's still here. After so many words yelled, so many arguments.. I know I'm still young and naive, but I swear with every single molecule in my being.. that he is the one that I will spend my life with.