I'm sad. I'm video calling with my boyfriend and he's sick. He's been asleep for the past few hours. His sister just came in and started taking care of him. You don't know how badly I want to take care of him. I want to be the one who changes the towel on his head. I'd rather be with him over there risking my health to make him feel better. I wish I could just go there. I would give anything to be his caregiver, I want him to be better, because I know thats all he wants. I want to make him medicine, give him crackers and feed him soup. It hurts knowing that I want to be the one he needs. I want him to know he can count on me when he's sick. I want to think that he's my forever, and during "forever" we're obviously gonna get sick once in a while. I want to be needed by him.