I can be the biggest bitch in the world if I wanted to. "live life to the fullest, you won't regret it" I could have tweeted "shut up" but my heart said no. I want to be angry. I thought things would have changed. You promised. BUT NOTHING CHANGED. I feeel like everything is a lie right now. I feel like I'm trying too hard. Saying " I love you" doesn't seem to be enough. I'm tired of being alone all the time.

It's not 2 years down the drain right? it's just 2 years of growing, figuring out who I am, how I can make someone happy. Learning what's too much and what's not enough. I don't feel happy, especially right now. I don't feel wanted by his family, which hurts more. I can't even stand it anymore. I don't like feeling unwanted.

Will this be the last of my sadness? will I have the heart to do anything about it?