how do you tell someone that you love them, but I'm just tired of being disappointed. I regretted everything that I said today because I know it hurt. I said everything I felt, but I'm just pissed off at myself because I still feel that way. If there was a way to make him happy forever, I would.

Today is fathers day, well.. its 11:55 and it wont be soon, but it is right now. My father, isn't the greatest father ever. But I know he loves me. He's loved me enough to stay with this family. I know he's done some wrong. I'm still searching my heart so I can forgive him for what he has done to me in my past. But I do love him. I hope that I'll find the forgiveness soon.

My heart needs so much mending. I'm not going to count on anyone anymore. Just me. I need saving from myself, and only I can be my own hero. If that makes any sense.

Been watching the old Dragonball series. its weird, it shows his penis. So many sexual innuendos. No big deal tho. I just chuckle and its something to watch since stupid Bleach wont work on the appletv.