Last night I was pretty rough on myself. I just couldn't take it. I just kept putting myself down, then I started crying. I always seem to do that when I'm alone. I always cry. I feel like I'll just drown in my tears. I just wanna know that I'm worth it, and I am strong enough to endure this. Ugh, my heart hurts all the time.
so annoying. I hate doing things and it always ends up unnoticed. I feel so insufficient all the time. I need someone to tell me that they're proud of me.
I cried last night, thinking that he forgot about me. But then he called to say goodnight. It made me feel better, just a little bit. Good thing I finished crying before he called. Or he would know somethings wrong. But if he knew me as much as I wish he did, he would know when I feel something. But if he could read my thoughts, he wouldn't enjoy the scenes that replay over and over.
It always seems to be about "me", but if you really knew me, it's not. In real life, its always about "everyone over me"
" If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I’ll always be with you."