watched the dmci musical tonight. It was really good, but I honestly feel so out of it lately. I felt like crying every time they spoke of loss. I just want to feel better.. somehow. I hate feeling like this and not being able to tell anyone.
I get so lonely, and when I'm finally with someone it makes me feel better. But when I'm with my boyfriend, I realized that I get so irritated when I don't have his attention. I miss his cuddles with me. I really need it. I feel so anxious all the time, I just need a moment with him. I need to relax. I don't want to depend on him as much as I do. I need to know that I'd be okay without him. I need him.. all the time. But he can't be there for me, and I know that.
I always want to run into someones arms and cry lately. But I need to stay strong. I need to make the most of this.
ugh... I can't take this anymore.. I can't even read the screen with all the tears blocking my vision. It's so hard to ask someone for their assistance, when no one's around.
" If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I’ll always be with you."