Ugh, this is so annoying, like fucking seriously. I asked a co-worker for my schedule, cause its in a fucking binder at work, i called in sick on thursday so I could study for my exam, and I was there on friday but all the managers were there and I was scared to check so I asked someone to do it. "monday 3 - 9, wednesday 12-5, thursday 5-cl" WHAT THE FUCK. ugh this is so annoying. the letters M-O-N and S-U-N aren't that close to each other, how the fuck do you get that wrong? its so annoying. I knew I should have checked. My parent's are fixing the toilet/shower so there basically hasnt been any water in this house since 5 this morning. it's so annoying. holy fuck. this isn't even funny. Even if I did have work I wouldn't have water to shower in. SO FUCKING ANNOYING. I'm being sabotaged, I get a written warning, this is so annoying, I never got anything wrong when I checked it myself. like a big FUCK YOU, goes out to you. so fucking annoying. I'm gonna go into a corner and kill myself. UGH.
also, family isn't an excuse. man the fuck up call me when you call me. you're so annoying too. idgaf, what happened to "us" It's always like this, EVERY FUCKING TIME we have a good day together, PHYSICALLY, like together.. you have to ruin it by not calling me the next day. you said "I have to take it at 10:55" you left at 9:20, called me at 8:45. I don't want you to call me because you have to, I want you to call me because you want to talk to me. I don't need this, I know that theres so much better, but no matter what I'm sticking with this. I enjoy it when you want to be with me or want to talk to me. I'm so tired of feeling like this, you have no idea. It makes me feel like being single is a better option. after everything i've been through to get to this point. I can even count the things you did for me on one hand. if you tried to count mine, it would go on and on. I just want you to try. I want you to come here just to be here. I want you to make me feel like you're willing to be here for me. I want YOU. I'm tired of your family being around when I'm with you. once in a while is fine. I hate that there has to be an occasion for us to hang out. Why can't it just be for "us"? or why can't it just be at my house, where no money can be spent. cause I hate the "I have no money" excuse. BECAUSE I DO. I HAVE MONEY. I'm not afraid to spend it on you, clearly. I'm so annoyed right now I'm just venting everything.
I don't give a fuck anymore, this is so annoying. I just want to be alone. I hate the world. everyone is out to fuck shit up for me. I hate my life.