There shouldn't be a term for "used to loving" someone. I still love him, but its just getting harder and harder. I miss the "chase" where he would drop everything just to talk to me. Where he would make everything worth it. when he tells me that I'm his only one. when it didn't matter who's listening, he's not afraid or embarrassed to tell me that he loves me, one person laughing at him wouldn't change his mind. I want you to want me. to call me because you want to hear my voice, to see me just for the sake of being with me, to kiss me because he can't help being away from me; I feel like this ALL the time, if his ringtone plays, I run to the phone and answer it right away, I try to clear my schedule for us to hang out but it never works out, when he's with me he doesn't have an urge to kiss me. I don't know if he misses me enough. Lord, please give me the strength to get through this. I know I don't need a boyfriend to be happy and that I can live without him but I don't want to. I want him in my life too much.