So, he finally talked to me. almost 48 h since the last time he spoke to me. It's really annoying. How I almost broke down and called him. I'm trying to be strong. it's hard. its hard to be away from him, but its getting easier every time it happens. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I just know that I'm bothered by my wisdom tooth extraction. I'm swollen right now. this is what happened; the week before my surgery, I PMS-ed and broke down everyday because I suck at uni. I was mainly a "participation" student, but obviously I don't have friends in my class so I dont participate. I just passed my psych midterm. I failed my bio midterm. I needed him to be there for me. He was. After my surgery, obviously I was been in pain, and I was pissy. So he left me, saying that he's pissed that I was pissy about everything. He said he'd call me in the morning, and at night. He didn't. You have no idea how disappointed I was about not hearing from him, the morning of my Bio Lab exam. I woke up late, my phone's alarm didnt go off. I woke up at 7, and I usually go to school at 730. I got to school at 7:30 though. My exam seemed fine. Class mates commented on my phone's bg and my laptop bg. its obviously me and arjel, everyone says "your boyfriend is cute" and I showed them his song. Like, even though he pissed me off, I wasn't afraid to show him off. I didn't know what that meant. But after my exam/lab I went home and fell asleep. I did my laundry and whatever. My pain was bad last night, so I went to sleep at 8. it sucked because I wanted my phone to play his ringtone. you have no idea how much I wanted it too. I'm tired of feeling like I'm the bad guy, and I'm always the first one to say sorry. I want him to want me as much as I want him. I want him to make an effort like I do. It sucks working so hard. I know he tries, but I just want him to try harder. He pinned me while I was sleeping today, he probably thought I was avoiding him. he can think that if he wants. But I want him to miss me. Thats it. I didn't want to pin back. I really didn't.