This morning, after I took a shower I looked at my phone and said "one missed call" and arjel's light was blinking. I called him back, no answer. It said he called around 7:15 and I was done at 7:20. I pinned him and pinged him. He called me back. I was wondering why he called me so early, and why he was awake. He said he wanted to give me a wake up call and to tell me to have a good day. I started crying. I was scared of everything. I still am, as I'm writing this. Today was only my orientation. I missed him so much. It hurts not seeing him all the time. But what I'm doing right now, is for our future. for us. I need to fight with everything I have not to ruin what we have. It's normal for me to cry all the time now, but my heart has never hurt so much. But if you think about it, when something breaks, it can repair itself and possibly become stronger. I miss him. I miss him with my everything. He's always going to be in my heart.