right before I fell asleep, I cried for about 5 minutes. At least I think it was about 5 minutes. It felt like an hour to be honest, but everything feels longer when you're not enjoying the moment. I know I shouldn't even care about how much it hurts, it shouldn't be like this. what is wrong with me? everything is so different now. He's probably gonna talk non-stop about his trip. gyan's gone good. but I'm going to the philippines next year, so it would only make sense for me to be bored this year after my debut. I honestly don't miss the stress. it's something I'd rather live without. Abby's debut is the year after that. next year will also be the baptisim of my tita's kid because shes having her child this year, at least I think she is. maybe I can actually go to this one this time. I feel bad for not going to the others. I love my cousins. The past week has been family, straight family. No friends what so ever. yeah, I don't know where I'm going with this anymore, I'm just speaking my mind as I watch Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.

Today is my 9 months, as already stated in the last post, with my boyfriend. I wish he could at least be in the same country as I am. -_-" thats all..