He already started to not miss me. He's just excited to get out of this world. I'm trying not to cry. Today is his last day and he's not even pinning me back, or calling me. My heart is kinda hurting right now. actually, its really hurting. oh well.. I guess I'm gonna have to deal with it. I'm just alone in my room sitting here listening to sad songs. No matter what I do, all I'll think about is him. I love him too much. I feel so empty already. I know hes busy, thats why I'm not constantly pinning him. He kept talking about his trip for the past few weeks and my heart just began to slowly hurt as he kept talking about it and as the day got closer and closer. Two weeks. the longest I've been away from him. I was so used to going to school and seeing him everyday and the weekend was so hard to not see him. It was only two days. It slowly got more bearable. Winter Break came, 10 days. But I got to see him on christmas, because I went to his family party with him. Made everything more bearable. second semester, we had almost every class together, every spare and every lunch hour. the best. exams slowly came, more studying, no more us time. school ended, constant cotillion practices, every day. My debut came. After that, once a week, twice a week tops. for 3-4 weeks. He's going to be gone for our 9th monthaverserey. this really sucks. I hate this. Everything hurts.