I don't know what I'm supposed to do about this. I'm tired of keeping my mouth shut. or being forced to say something when when I ask you other questions you're so cold that you don't even budge. so don't tell me that you wanna know because "you care so much about me" just let me have my secrets. after all we've been through, everything I've done to get us here. I can be independent, I know I can. I hate only posting angry things. Every time I read back it just becomes a cloudy grey memory. Just like this morning. I woke up from his pins. I got more angry. URGH. what am I supposed to do with you? I'm not going to make rash decisions. Do not tempt me. I know I'll regret what I think I would say. just leave me be. I don't need this.