you don't get it, do you? I spend every waking minute thinking about you and anticipating your call. I no longer reply to your pins early enough because its just a casualty now. It's just something that you're not doing cause you want to, but you're doing it because you're bored. I want you to WANT to talk to me. WANT to converse with me, and not just because you have nothing to do. Its been almost 9 months. What is it supposed to be like? I've never been with someone this long, but I've never felt farther away from someone. I miss you every waking second of every day. I really wish you read this and realized how frustrating this is. I want you to want me as much as I want you. I just don't know how I'm supposed to do it. can you help me fight for us as much as I do? please. I give the biggest hints ever, you're so oblivious and all you think about is yourself. Can you stop and care for me? I'm probably over-reacting because I'm stressed out. But it's not going to get any easier, we need to fight for this. This is all we have.