day 4, its getting easier to be away from you. I don't know if thats a good thing or not. It's just like last year, I had no one to talk to during the summer except the bbs. I was busy everyday, so I had no time to think about heartache. It's harder right now, being so attached to someone and they leave and there's no sign of them.. I'm starting to get mad, at least its better then being sad. Clearly, he doesn't want to talk to me. which makes me feel like shit. Honestly. I don't know why I'm so mad that everything is pissing me off. I don't really know what I'm supposed to be feeling. I don't want to be sad anymore. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of wasting tears on someone who doesn't care about anything I say.

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets; Having a marathon for myself, just because I can. My sister needs to stop getting her boyfriend to come over. I don't like that kid, especially right now. Maybe its because I'm jealous. But I never did like him.