So he just texted me. I sent him a text from a few days ago talking about how I finally got my school ID. He said he was proud of me. For some reason, when I read that, sadness overwhelmed me. I just really miss him. I know he's going to go on and on about the water parks. he ended a text with "okay bye" I so I replied "I miss you. Thats all" I think thats why I don't want him to come back . I don't want to know how much fun he had without me. I try not to have without him, I try so hard not to. Because I don't want him to feel left out. Is that so wrong? He's having the time of his life without me. I want to have fun, but I don't know how. This just really sucks. I thought I was over it. I really thought I was. I thought I was over missing him so much that it hurts. idk. this really sucks now. ugh. I can't road trip with my family because of everything thats going on right now. Everyone is just full of depression. My parents and my brother don't have their passport yet, cause my dad keeps putting it off. My dad is the one that wants to go somewhere. but what do you really want? I don't want to road trip with this family because It's just gonna end up all sucky. I'm only going to go on road trips with my friends. I'm really sorry to anyone who reads this. This is my getaway, no matter what. No one knows I still blog about my life. It used to just be lovey-dovey stuff, now its just everything.