perfect? shall I define it. Well.. it honestly speaks for itself. But I honestly don't care what perfect is to anyone else but me. Perfect, to me, is just imperfection. I wanna truly know if I have found the one. I know I have my off days. I spend my evenings waiting for his calls. why? because I'd rather have him find the time to talk to me instead of me forcing myself into it. the last thing I'd ever want is for him to leave me for being too clingy. being clingy is such a hard habit to get out of. I don't want to be dependent on him for everything. I'm tired of being jealous of people whom I shouldn't even care about. I don't talk about it because its just hurting me and making him think I'm psycho. I keep so many things in that when I cry, I really cry. I sob like there's no tomorrow. Every single cell in my body is sad. Its been bothering my lately, that I don't even know what to do anymore. I've cried to Him so many times, and i've cried to my boyfriend. I don't know where else to go. Things will get better, because they eventually do. I'm just impatiently waiting. Waiting for the right time to come, and letting everything to fall into place. I just wish it would cause less damage to my heart. I carry a heavy burden already, going forward in each day, dragging my heavy heart behind. I wanna talk to someone who won't get mad at me for crying. It hurts my boyfriend when I cry to him.. thats the last thing I want to do. I'm pretty sure it annoys him too, he get frustrated because I seem to not hear him. I do. It's just not processing. I know my problems seem petty and theres so much more to worry about. But I don't want to think about this anymore. I've been sleeping a lot this weekend. well its only saturday. I spent like 2/3 of my day sleeping. why? I'd honestly rather be in my dreams then worry about everything. I'm a better dreamer then I am a goal-achiever. I just need someone to help me. I know everything has been on the darker side lately, but It will get better. I promise.