this song was a level up song. yeah, i think i blogged about it, so just look for it i guess.

welcome me back to blogger (: freaking tumblrs so freaking confusing. and I guess i can talk about how i really feel here, no one really reads this anyways. so im good.

first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUYA LORENZ! (:

since thats out of the way.

today was overall a good day. My and kuya Jun hung out today. more One on One kinda things, we really got into deep conversation. I really like talking to him, cause he can relate to me so well. I'm glad he's my Program head. He makes me happy (:

so today I really didn't do anything. I had precal first period, thats a blah class, i learned it already. then in english, was blah again. bio was alright .. i guess. because i got to eat food. hahaha. then chem was pretty good. we really didnt do anything, we just got a quiz, and yvanne pointed out that me and gyan matched. its really weird me and gyan like .. ALWAYS match. its like we own the same wardrobe or something. hahaha.. aanyways, i think i did pretty good on that quiz, minus one question. haha. so at choir was .. weird. mrs.wahl said she had a friend thats "cute and small, like ardia" and all i heard was "small like ardia" HAHAHA and i was like "EXCUSE ME" and she was like "stand up ardia, i cant see you" and i was already standing up. maan, i need to learn to tone it down. i know its okay at times, but i do this like ALL the time. so, yeah. someone just warn me please and thanks.

vocal jazz totally hurt my throat more and more each time. im getting more scared every day. because i'm really scared to get my tonsils taken out.. what if i can't sing EVER AGAIN?! like .. im not that good at guitar, piano or clarinet. I just can do it better then others. but .. im nothing without my singing voice. yeah so, i sing tenor, and its difficult for me to blend my voice, but i always come through. It does take time, more for me though. but .. I'm dedicated to being a vocalist. it may not be something i take in the future, but its something i enjoy, and I don't want it to end unless it really HAS to. please .. i dont want to lose my singing voice before my surgery. I NEED IT.

now on to something else. I dont know why im so pissy right now, but i just am. IM FREAKING SICK OF YOUR VOICE. i love you and everything .. but its really annoying. you're not always the best.

P.S im the YL, so i can do what ever the fuck i want.