Hot and Cold. Wednesday, August 26, 20095:47 AM / top
stop making me think! just tell me if you like me or not, it won't change anything between us if you don't. just make up you f*cking mind up. like seriously.. it hurts enough already. there are times where the chemistry between us is like undeniable, and sometimes, it could be better but its still there.
I'm honestly really scared for what God has in store for me, i dont know if i can handle this. But im also excited for some reason. I think i have joy in actually not being bored, but this time ima be filled w/ so much work. oh. my. gosh. i was so chill this year because of precal. i didn't take it. but now im going to have my hands full, like .. first semester w/ english, bio, chem, AND precal. thats freaking crazy. second sem is gonna be my chill sem, because i have so many things to do. ima just have history and grade 12 precal as my majors. no biggie. did i mention ima join student council too? AND all my performing arts things. choir, band, vocal jazz, chamber choir, dance, musical. thats like 5.5 - 6 credits A YEAR that i dont need. but thats how i got to 22 credits. i dont think i qualify to be a doctor. I think its because I care too much. sometimes i feel like the epitome of failure. but im the kind of person to Try and Fails, other then Fails to Try. I can give myself that.
urgh, its getting bright outside. i didnt stay up this late, even though i know can, i fell asleep at 12:30 and then woke up at 5 theres 6 hours of sleep i just gained. i actually fell asleep because i was tired, not cause i forced myself. well i kinda did. cause i wanted to stay on the computer and watch movies, but i decided otherwise.
I'm really confused. I don't know why its happening now.
" If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I’ll always be with you."