The longer I stay away from you, hurts more, but eases the pain cause I know I can go on without you. You're name still gives me butterflies. Why must you be so far from me, love?
Today, had a fam jam, last minute. I really wanted to go to the hsb fellowship, it would be the last time that some people would be there ): But, I know I haven't been spending enough time with my family as I liked to. I just wish it was complete ): it hurts to know that I can even have fun without my sister and nephew/godchild. I'm praying you'll come back. Praying hard. I hope I'll be allowed to go to the sisterhood. I'm planning to go anyways. then perhaps ate christine's debut. my counterpart, well former CAMP counterpart, is in her cotillion (: oh how i miss camp. Good thing the sisterhood is coming up, cause I think I really need this right now. I need the faithfulness and strength to get me by this summer.
kso, I've been trying to write a song. I can't find the lyrics. Nothing fits. I have the music. It's just a bunch of chords I put together that sounded nice while I was playing my guitar. But there WAS so many different kinds of lyrics that flooded through my mind at the time. So I slept on it. But I lost it all the next day. Now im stuck. Maybe after the sisterhood, I'll get the words right. Or maybe I can bring my guitar there? teehee.
One more thing, I'm praying that in the end it'll all work out. cause "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."
Everything I need is You. My beginning, My forever... and how many times have you heard me pray?
/. CONT' 2:25 PM I need to learn how to wake up early.. and to add on to that, sleep early. freaking summer, changing my sleeping habits again. But then again, its more comfortable for me. maybe i should just move to some place thats 4 hours behind central time, cause i'm good with that. maybe BC?! haha its two hours, but its not like those two hours would make a difference. haahhaha jk jk. but yeah, i really REALLY wanna go there. so badly, you have no flippin idea. soo .. im gonna sleep early today, cause the pamilia wants to watch my sister's keeper tomorrow. DURING LUNCH. but its okay .. i'll wake up early just for them, but i'll probably pass out on the bus ride to yvanne's bahay (: LMAO what my mom said to jeff yesterday .. "we'll tie him to a chair and feed him" thats something ... that i would think .. HAHAH like mother, like daughter. HAHAHA!
well .. i need to find my bike, to go biking. im letting my self GO, dammit . i need to work out. I used to be happy, but now im just .. not. LOL time for realizeation. Thats why I should stop eating, but I eat when im bored, and I know thats not healthy, but it gives me something to do. MAN, i even eat when im out w/ friends. dammit, does food have to be so good?! oh, and i dont like miso soup. LOL freaking abby .. haha. MAN, i want BLT from school. haha.
School's gonna be different now. im so used to being with everyone. LOL me, gyan and yvanne .. "this is what its gonna be like next year .." haha vocal jazz barbeque. But its okay, we still have each other ;) maan, imagine my grade 10 year .... BUT thats a long waays away. maybe not, cause this year seemed to go by pretty fast. I really enjoyed the second semester the most. haha. the second period spare people. chemistry was always fun w/ yvanne, lynel, camy, gyan, arlyn, and abby. I liked dance cause kuya Gino would teach sometimes. and they'd dance with us if they knew the dance. oh third period was always fun .. when mr.tanner taught it. the last few weeks was .. that douche bag of a teacher, sorry .. but I really didnt like her. hahaha
maan, im so bored, that im doing this .. wheeever, at least time bored .. with things to, attempt to, do.
" If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I’ll always be with you."