If I Ain't Got You. Monday, June 29, 20091:53 AM / top
"Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you" - Alicia Keys.
I miss you, just thought I'd say that. I need to actively think to make myself not think of you, you're always on my mind, for no apparent reason. I wonder what you're doing, how your day is going .. and if you're thinking of me. I'd like to think that, but I can never be sure. I stare at my phone for minutes or maybe even hours at a time, wondering if I should call you, just to hear your voice and see how your doing. I'm afraid I'd bother you. Once I work up the courage, I look at the time and it's gotten late and I put down my phone and wait till the next day to work up that same courage. Every time I call you the first ring makes my heartbeat faster. The messages I attempt to send you on msn, I can never gather enough courage to press enter, just to say hi. I'm so comfortable with you in person, why is it so hard to communicate through technology? No, I'm not obsessing. I just think .. I love you.
What is love? Even I'm not sure. The only Love I know for sure is God's Love. There's also my family. But the family thing is kinda mandatory. Friends, I chose to love like family, because they are like family. But you, you're different. Is it love? I don't know. Is love when you make my days go better just for being there? Is love when my heart skips a beat just at the sound of your name? Is love when my phone rings and I'm hoping that its you? Is love when you're smile makes all the pain go away? Is love when I'm constantly praying that you'll just have a good day? Is love when your feelings rub off on me and you make me 10 times the mood you're in? Is love when I listen to love songs, and every single line, brings back a memory of you? Is love when I constantly miss you? Is love when there's an event and I immediately ask if you're going? Is love when I go somewhere and hope I'll randomly bump into you? Is love when I think of things to talk to you about the next time I see you? IS THIS LOVE?
I'm waiting for you. I don't know how long, but I will for as long as I can. Maybe you'll come to me eventually? maybe you'll come just in time. Maybe .. you'll come too late. All I can do is wait, patiently. Love takes time. I just thought I'd let you know.
" If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I’ll always be with you."