Dreaming With A Broken Heart. Saturday, June 6, 200911:15 PM / top
"When you're dreaming with a broken heart The waking up is the hardest part You roll outta bed and down on your knees And for a moment you can hardly breathe Wondering was she really here? Is she standing in my room? No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone...." - John Mayer
sometimes, theres no one but Him to talk to. When you feel alone, secluded, and depressed. Its better then being emo and cutting youself. Just pray. But sometimes, theres no greater pain then heartbreak. I dont know how to describe it.. a broken heart .. is worse then physical pain. yes, WORSE.
im not saying im heartbroken or anything, just thought i'd share that, because for some reason. im in that kind of mood. I dont know if its a good or bad thing. Cause i actually thought i didnt have any feelings at one point, because i was always so happy. being sad.. THIS way is a change. but now that i feel it .. i dont like it .. one bit, im really dumb sometimes .. and to think of 'it' it is pretty whack. seriously
OHHH, i remember why i first got pissed of now .. my dad was giving me shit about school, when he doesnt even know whats happening. he always fucking expects the worse, and YOU KNOW WHAT, you may get the worst, because you've been badgering me about it for YEARS. like seriously .. IM NOT GONNA END UP LIKE WHAT YOU EXPECT, cause you always expect the worse from me .. THATS WHY IM NEVER HOME. fuck. you're gonna make me QUIT YFC?! thats not possible, I CANT quit that. God is with me all the time. is it my fault you became practically an atheist after someone called you a bad influence? like FUCK, maybe thats why im like this. out of everything, why cant you support me with yfc? like seriously .. you push me in music, but you're not even that good. so stop judging me in everything i do.
" If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I’ll always be with you."