Break Your Heart Right Back Monday, September 1, 20149:32 PM / top
I'm actually in so much pain right now. I don't even want to explain why. But i need a get away from this anxiety and I don't know what else to do. So I am finally writing another blog about my feelings.
I feel broken and unfixable. I don't want to settle for less than I deserve. I wish my heart would stop giving me this feeling. I want to make sure that I can be okay by myself. I spent 17 years without him, I should be able to be by myself again. I wish I could just be happy for more than a few hours. This funk is not unfamiliar but this duration is the longest its been. My heart can't take this. This is not healthy. I need to breathe but its like I'm drowning in my own anxiety.
I love myself, I have a sense of knowing what I deserve and what I don't.
" If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I’ll always be with you."