Wipe Your Eyes Beautiful. Sunday, October 21, 20129:16 PM / top
ugh I just constantly keep crying myself to sleep. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. nothing seems to go right.
I don't think I'm smart enough to go to university. That is my honest oppinion. Its just so hard. I want to be as successful as possible. I don't want to be a failure. I don't want to be a disappointment.
I'm scared for my future. My Ideal is to settle down with someone I love, and have a family. MY OWN family. I don't know if thats even possible. My doctor was sure I had PCOS. I have my appointment tomorrow. Its my blood test results. It was tested for diabetes and PCOS, and I'm pretty sure that I'm positive for both of them. My stomach just churns at the thought of this. I just ... cant.
Peace,Love & Harmony, arjaaah♥
Love Me Like You Do. Saturday, October 13, 201212:38 PM / top
The song is irrelevant to what I have to say.
I never liked you, even when I was a kid. You were always so mean to me, and even when I was a kid I'd hope you would get a divorce so I wouldn't need to see you anymore, just like everyone else that gets divorced. I didn't know how bad those thoughts was until it actually happened. But you made everyone miserable even your children. I don't understand why you didn't understand that. obviously you didn't think about your kids. You left when they were still young, you could have waited until they were all pretty old, not 12 or 15. But no, all you think about is yourself. It's always been like that. Even though he is struggling, I'm pretty sure he is happy without you. He's got us. It might be a little bias, but I'm pretty sure he's happier.
" If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I’ll always be with you."