Think Of Me
Saturday, October 22, 2011 4:40 PM /
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yeah, this month has been really hard on me. my sister's pregnant. I'm pretty sure arjel wants to break up with him. I can't really make sense of this.. It's really mind boggling. I really don't have any ways to describe how I'm feeling at this moment. I feel so confused and lost. why? I don't even understand.. I'm confused. nevermind.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Nobody's Perfect.
Thursday, October 20, 2011 5:15 PM /
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So, he finally talked to me. almost 48 h since the last time he spoke to me. It's really annoying. How I almost broke down and called him. I'm trying to be strong. it's hard. its hard to be away from him, but its getting easier every time it happens. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I just know that I'm bothered by my wisdom tooth extraction. I'm swollen right now. this is what happened; the week before my surgery, I PMS-ed and broke down everyday because I suck at uni. I was mainly a "participation" student, but obviously I don't have friends in my class so I dont participate. I just passed my psych midterm. I failed my bio midterm. I needed him to be there for me. He was. After my surgery, obviously I was been in pain, and I was pissy. So he left me, saying that he's pissed that I was pissy about everything. He said he'd call me in the morning, and at night. He didn't. You have no idea how disappointed I was about not hearing from him, the morning of my Bio Lab exam. I woke up late, my phone's alarm didnt go off. I woke up at 7, and I usually go to school at 730. I got to school at 7:30 though. My exam seemed fine. Class mates commented on my phone's bg and my laptop bg. its obviously me and arjel, everyone says "your boyfriend is cute" and I showed them his song. Like, even though he pissed me off, I wasn't afraid to show him off. I didn't know what that meant. But after my exam/lab I went home and fell asleep. I did my laundry and whatever. My pain was bad last night, so I went to sleep at 8. it sucked because I wanted my phone to play his ringtone. you have no idea how much I wanted it too. I'm tired of feeling like I'm the bad guy, and I'm always the first one to say sorry. I want him to want me as much as I want him. I want him to make an effort like I do. It sucks working so hard. I know he tries, but I just want him to try harder. He pinned me while I was sleeping today, he probably thought I was avoiding him. he can think that if he wants. But I want him to miss me. Thats it. I didn't want to pin back. I really didn't.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
One Summer's Day.
Saturday, October 8, 2011 9:18 PM /
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idk. today kind of sucked. like f'real. I don't know what I'm doing wrong anymore. I feel like watching spirited away.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Words I Say.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011 7:01 PM /
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today, after two weeks, I went to see my loving boyfriend. <3 It was actually very overwhelming, my heart bursted once I saw him and I started to bawl. It was a relief to my heart to see him. It sucks being away from him, all the time. I know sometimes talking should be enough, but he is so close yet feels so far. Might as well be a million miles away. But he's not. I took the chance and headed to arjel's house and then told him I was going to be there. we hung out at the park near his house. my life was set. I just wish time would have froze. So I could be with him for as long as I want. The moment he was walking with me holding my hand, was a moment that I'd want to last a lifetime.
Sometimes I can't believe what I am seeing
But I always see love that you are giving to me
And I still don't know what lead me to you
But I know this, this was meant to be
And girl in your smile I see my everything
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
On My Way Here.
Sunday, October 2, 2011 9:06 PM /
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Oh God. I'm having an episode. like seriously. I don't know why it's so hard for me. Can we please not fight anymore? :( I really don't want to do this. Can you just say you're sorry for breaking your promise? please.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥