Crazier Wednesday, September 1, 201011:06 PM / top
I had a dream last night. I don't know where it took place, or when it started. But what happened is one of my best friends began doing things that were wrong (take note that this was a dream and anything can happen) there was one part which made my heartbeat so fast that i didn't know what was real or not. He took his motorcycle and was planning to just drive away to get away from things. I know he's been planning just a small trip like that for a while, but idk something felt wrong. so I took my car (a nice one, but i don't have my license) and just drove it really fast. I was going litterally 200 kmp/h it was so scary. I felt the speed get to me as I was driving. My heart started to beat faster as I finally caught up with him and i got in front of him and drove slower.. cause I thought I finally got advantage it was a narrow road. We slowed down until I got to a complete stop. I got out of the car, he was totally fine. I fell in his arms crying telling him how much I worried about him and I just want to know where he's going and what he's doing and if he'll be back. I cried in his arms while holding his hand, never wanting to let go. next scene; we were at some really nice house, just chillin w/ the usuals. But he was holding me, and asked me to be his girlfriend. I felt complete, something I haven't felt in a while. I was so happy I told *nick about it and he was really happy and said he was looking forward to that all summer. We all were just chillin watchin random things on tv. me and him went into a room, getting comfortable, telling him how long i've been waiting and I never knew this day would come. We just cuddled for the majority of the time, then *jay interrupted. But my "boyfriend" didn't care about him seeing, so we talked casually but im still in his arms. Jay finally left, and we just got into the moment and started to kiss. This dream felt so real, I felt the kiss and wanting this love to never end. I felt his hug and it all was familiar to me, thats when i thought I knew it was real. Then my alarm rang. Flustered, I checked the time this morning, 7:50. My alarm is 7:45, my dream kept me asleep for 5 extra minutes. I fell back asleep wanting to get back to my dream, or my wanted-reality. I woke up at 11 am from nothing but blank sleep. I stayed in bed until 2pm, wondering if that dream was what I really wanted. He's my bestfriend for a reason, I know I check him out from time to time, but I do that to everyone. Now I can't picture me with anyone else. I don't want it to happen. Maybe Andrew was right, he said we won't stay bestfriends for long. But I know I do wanna be there for him, because of the tough times he's been going through. I can't make you not do, or do anything. I just wish you'd realize that I've got your back through thick and thin. I'm always going to be on your side. Maybe this dream just tells me that I need you in my life as much as you need me. Sometimes I wish I knew what you were thinking about, so I can help you.
8' I watched from a distance as you made life your own
" If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I’ll always be with you."