When You Believe.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009 8:12 PM /
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"There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe"
- David Archuleta
ALRIGHTY, today was interesting. I woke up early and asked Amy on msn whats all the hubbub to get report cards. And I had to just go to school at 9, and that's what I did. But I waited there for like .. 20 mins just for the gym to open. When I got my report card I saw dimple and she asked me where I was going and I said I didnt know, and she told me we should wait for lorenz. When he came he got his report card and then we went on a journey to find people's faces in the grad pictures. Then yvanne came along and we went to sargent park to watch yvanne's inaanak sing! (: but .. me and dimple went to the washroom halfway through and ended up not coming back in time, cause we said hi to the teachers and got cake. LOL then we went to yvanne's humble abode, atem and watched Little Manhattan. OH MY GOSH, me and dimple were so cheesed during that movie. I LOVE IT! its so cute! hahaha! then yvanne left for work.. and we stayed at her house to wait for ace and bea. they're the cutest little children on the face of the earth! they make me so gigil! haha! we played jenga and then after one game we left, cause .. its just kinda weird when we're at yvanne's house and shes not even there. So we went to dimples house. we walked all the way, YES all the way. we had like heart-to-heart-to-heart things! looove it! So I turn 16 in less then 4 hours, and I think I should get a job so I have something to do soon, thats what dimple and kuya lorenz said. LOL , if i work in their area i'll be part of the plans to go to work. hahaha. and ZOMG we totally need to have a cook off, boys vs girls, but .. even though we're gonna win anyways xD CHEESECAKE! anyways, then kuya Lorenz left, and then dimple fell asleep, and her little brother was just conversing with me. omg, hes so cute. hahaha. then I left around 4.
K know what, I left around 4 and I didnt get home around 5. I guess you can say I strolled around just to give myself time to think. I took so long to get home, all I did was walk around. I really had nothing to think about, or I had everything to think about and I couldn't make up my mind. I felt like crying at one point, but I dont even know why. Everything is totally fine, It's just those kinda days. Like, I woke up feeling all sick, but once I started hanging out with people I got better throughout the day. I don't know what thats called. I think I was literally friend-sick. LOL. I still kinda am, I didnt get to see errbody today. I miss a lot of people. hahaha im so clingly. well not really, its been like 5 days since like I've actually hung out with anyone so i have an excuse. I don't wanna be a hermit this summer. I need to get out more. so chyeah.
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Let Me Love You.
Monday, June 29, 2009 5:54 PM /
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"You should let me love you
let me be the one to
give you everything
you want and need
baby good love and protection
make me your selection
show me the way love's
supposed to be"
- Mario
just sitting hear is boring the pooop outta me. get me outta the house people! awuh, thames is gonna leave soon. my buddy on so many levels. I miss errbody, lets just hang out soon, REALLY SOON. k thats all, bye.
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
If I Ain't Got You.
1:53 AM /
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"Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you"
- Alicia Keys.
I miss you, just thought I'd say that. I need to actively think to make myself not think of you, you're always on my mind, for no apparent reason. I wonder what you're doing, how your day is going .. and if you're thinking of me. I'd like to think that, but I can never be sure. I stare at my phone for minutes or maybe even hours at a time, wondering if I should call you, just to hear your voice and see how your doing. I'm afraid I'd bother you. Once I work up the courage, I look at the time and it's gotten late and I put down my phone and wait till the next day to work up that same courage. Every time I call you the first ring makes my heartbeat faster. The messages I attempt to send you on msn, I can never gather enough courage to press enter, just to say hi. I'm so comfortable with you in person, why is it so hard to communicate through technology? No, I'm not obsessing. I just think .. I love you.
What is love? Even I'm not sure. The only Love I know for sure is God's Love. There's also my family. But the family thing is kinda mandatory. Friends, I chose to love like family, because they are like family. But you, you're different. Is it love? I don't know.
Is love when you make my days go better just for being there?
Is love when my heart skips a beat just at the sound of your name?
Is love when my phone rings and I'm hoping that its you?
Is love when you're smile makes all the pain go away?
Is love when I'm constantly praying that you'll just have a good day?
Is love when your feelings rub off on me and you make me 10 times the mood you're in?
Is love when I listen to love songs, and every single line, brings back a memory of you?
Is love when I constantly miss you?
Is love when there's an event and I immediately ask if you're going?
Is love when I go somewhere and hope I'll randomly bump into you?
Is love when I think of things to talk to you about the next time I see you?
IS THIS LOVE?
I'm waiting for you. I don't know how long, but I will for as long as I can. Maybe you'll come to me eventually? maybe you'll come just in time. Maybe .. you'll come too late. All I can do is wait, patiently. Love takes time. I just thought I'd let you know.
Love (this one im sure about),
diasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Heels Over Head.
Sunday, June 28, 2009 12:16 PM /
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"Now I'm heels over head
I'm hangin' upside down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound"
- Boyslikegirls
kso, actually no meaning connecting the song and what im feeling right now EXCEPT ME AND THAMIE ROCK. hahaha, though i feel kinda sad that im not allowed out today cause i've been to billions of places in the past week. there wasnt a day where i didn't go anywhere. thank God for that. i'd be bored outta my mind, kinda like i am gonna be today. I hope it doesnt rain for the fellowship, just cause i cant have a good day doesn't mean they all cant. maaan, i miss them already. but they're all probably gonna go to ate ariel's, cause it was her birthday and it was ate christines (: YAAY hsb sisters. im kinda anticipating the next school year now. i wonder whats gonna happen with HSB there, the new members in ice and chill, and how the new band teacher will teach. how dmci's finest is gonna be. so many things to look out for. will they be better? just as good? or will the crash and burn? wow.. so many scenarios for that. someone wanna come over later? im freaking bored. or maybe i should dedicate this day to cleaning my room and doing productive things, yenno so it looks good for my birthday party. hahaha. maybe i'll get to it. (:
CONT' 12:40 PM
fail, mood crusher.
CONT' 3:40 PM
k you cheap shit.
Love LOTS,
arjaaah.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
"So blessed, I can't contain it
So much, I've got to give it away
Your love taught me to live now
You are more than enough for me"
- Hillsong
I just got back from the Camp Revelation victory party and WOW do i feel blessed just to know everyone there! (: maaan i wish that i felt like this everyday.
kso, my day went like this .. I woke up at 12 PM and then i just chilled until 4, and then i got ready for the partaaay! (: then I went over and helped get things ready. I peeled oranges! (: SWEEEEEEEEET. the best job evaaar. I was working with fruit with joyce and jessica! yaaay sistah loove! oh yeah.. and harley. LOL .. then people started rolling in slowly. then we were watching He's just not into you or something like that . everyone was getting distracted .. just as bryson said. they were talking about drag me to hell. I kinda wanna watch it cause of what kirsten and kristian have been saying about it. LOL you like .. have the same name just the letters are rearranged. k anyways, we were just chillin then the food was YUMMYLICIOUS! mMmMmMm we soo cool! 8) then the brothers started playing games .. so me and jessica hung out with the 'older crowd' outside. with all the titos and titas, kuya earl, bryson, and jun. HAHA then kenny comes outta nowhere and goes like 'oh yeah, so I'M too young and you let them *points at me and jessica* in here' HAHAHA you're funny. awwuh, then i felt the hot air from the house and then i was like 'no go away' and john was there. BUT i didnt see him .. and he walked away and i was like 'nooooooo! i didnt mean you .... come back!!!!..... fine! don't come back' LOL im so mean .. but i didnt mean to be. AT LEAST im not like kenny. "i've become more of a jerk throughout the years" hahahaha. then he was talking about his phases in life, he had a fat stage, skinny stage and his now, his chubby stage. LOL you're funny. OMG yenno whos HILARIOUS?! Harley and kuya sevi together! OMG they do the weirdest things to eachother. maan, kuya sevi BIT harley! HAHAHAHA! harley, you're so cool! LOL then the boys just went on and on with their street fighter game thing. and me and jessica were the only sisters left. so we went into ate evony's room with ate grace and ate lara. cause we coo! then we watched saved by the bell! and we had a conversation with kuya sevi and kuya earl talking about school, and being a middle child. WHOOOT. "on my grad i got drunk ... DO AS WE SAY NOT SAY AS WE DO" hahaha then after a while kuya sevi had a guitar .. YAAY me and kenny sang as 'she was mine' as harley played. THEN me and kuya sevi jammed with 'deeply in love' in the kitchen. i guess people were in awe as i sang probably cause they didnt know i could. (: well .. then during the first chorus, we were so into it, then my mom called me .. but i waited a bit longer. bryson came and chilled with us and just listened. i sang and kuya sevi sang the harmony. he so coo! we make a pretty good duo. LOL i say that alot! but i mean it! (: yaaaaay! k thats all i did.
"I need to actively think to try not to think of you"
CONT' 1:56 AM
OH OH OH! i forgot to tell you how cool me and jessica are together! (: hahaha
and .. lesson of the day .. epitome = eh-pit-oh-mee. NOT epi-tome. HAHAHA
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
You Pulled Me Through.
Friday, June 26, 2009 11:31 PM /
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"i was in the darkness
i was out in the cold
seemed nothing could heal this
this hole in my soul
you reached out your arms to me
held out your heart to me
pulled me back from the edge
thought i reached the end.
when i was drowning
when i was so confused
you you you pulled me through
i was in the shadows
lost, nothing left to lose.
you, you, you pulled me through.
you gave my faith back
faith was so hard to find
you gave me my life back
you were my lifeline
the love that you gave me
is love that has saved me
your strength is what made me strong
you held me and i held on
when i was drowning
when i was so confused
you oh you you pulled me through
i was in the shadows
lost, nothing left to lose.
you, you, you pulled me through.
out of the dark
into your arms
into the light
your love saved my life
when i was drowning
when i was so confused
you, ooh you, you (pulled me through)
(when i was drowning) when i was drowning
i was so confused (when i was confused)
yea you ooh you yea you you pulled me through
(you pulled me through, you) you, you pulled me through"
- DMCI Grad '09 choir. (Venice, Angela, Elven, Lorenz, Daniel, David, Jeff, Dimple, Carmel and Thamie)
yuhp yuhp, whole song.
CONGRATS GUYS! you've achieved life's basic goal. I'm so proud of you guys! AND GUESS WHAT, im not gonna miss you. CAUSE YOU GUYS AREN'T GONNA LEAVE ME! i wont let you (: This won't be the last time ima hang with you guys. the only 'last' thing it is, is that you're not my school mate anymore. you're my full time friend now! <3 kso today was pretty awesome. i went to the ceremony and say with yvanne, ashley, camy, renee and gyan. me and gyan just made comments about random things that happened. while renee on the other hand was screaming her face off cheering. LOL the ceremony was pretty long, but i know for the graduates, it felt like a few minutes, cause i know that thats how i'd feel. I'd want to savor that moment. It liked the ceremony though! well .. only the singing, cheering and the end. hahaha. MAN the grad choir sounds do blended i FREAKING LOVE IT! what a shame we have those talented people to leave. we'll try to make it sound good when you guys leave. if not. COME BACK (: thats always an option. after the grad .. i went looking for people and pictures were taken, hugs were given out, congrats were being said. then me, gyan, jeff, yvanne, jewelry, ate praisia and kuya vincent went to mcdo and then the girls went to their fitting. I WAS STUCK IN THE CAR WITH WHINERS. hahahah. kinda funny. then we headed for the reyes' residence. we watched .. HSM3 senior year, x-men 3 and slumdog millionaire. HOLY, movie night. hahaha . that killed some time while waiting for people to come. after that thamie and dimple came. after that cherrie and elven came. YAY for people! we watched slumdog millionair with them. and then KARAOKE! sweeeeeeeeeeet. ME AND THAMIE ARE THE BOMBDIGITY! converse&dress&boyslikegirls! me and dimple are so sly .. "Gyan Delos Reyes DIMPS AND ARJAAAH ARE COOLER THAN GYAN ♥ we were not here." LOL thats why never leave it on. well .. i always leave it on, so i dont blame you. ZOMG karaoke is so awesome. but it likes kuya vincent better then anyone, i think it needs to be fixed. HAHAHA jokes. overall, today was like no other . i spent almost the whole day with people i care alot about i made endless russell peters remarks on most things i found out that me and thamie make a duo i FREAKING LOVE IT! ♥
Love ALWAYS,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
"I've been there a thousand times,
I've felt the rain like a thousand knives.
And it hurts,
I know it hurts
I've been there like a fighter plane,
Tryin' fly my way through a hurricane.
And it's hard,
I know it's hard"
- 33 miles
There's a person in my life, whom I care about very much. He is my inspiration for most things. He's the kind of guy that when your feelings towards him grow so much that its unbearable, but you don't wanna risk your friendship. But I know that unspoken words are the most cases to broken hearts. I didn't choose to fall for you, it just happened. It hurts so much everyday. I Pray to God that this is only a phase, but its been so long already. It has become unbelievably unbearable right now. I don't know how to deal with it. I need to know. I'm the kind of person to jump to conclusions right away, and I know you know what I assume. My heart has broke, and you have the pieces to it. I need you in my life, but I don't want to force you into it. You make my days go better. Everything is just so much better with you..
.. I think I love you.
Lord, I need you to help me through this.
CONT' 9:00 AM.
kso, convocation is in an hour, i should start doing things but i wanna do this.
in an hour they're going to officially be out of dmci.
in an hour, they're officially gonna have to take hold of their own lives.
in an hour, my school mates will become my full-time friends (:
ZOMG, its only been a year with you guys. but .. 'the only constant thing in life is change' so either, im gonna have to get used to it or just cry the whole time. either one is fine with me. cause 'crying cleanses the soul" LOL me and my millions of quotes i may use on a day to day basis. im freaking cool if you know what i mean 8)
KSO, about last post (post above), im freaking emo. holy crap. but i know my reasons. 'im usually a happy person. i overload on happy.." HAHAHA russell peters. hes the bombdigity. MAN this is getting waay off topic, i'll just start to get ready for the convocation and tell you about it later.
Love,
diasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Man In The Mirror
Thursday, June 25, 2009 6:25 PM /
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"A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go"
- Michael Jackson
R.I.P Michael Jackson, you were an inspiration to everyone.
Kso, today i found out that michael jackson died. HOLY CRAP the world will grieve for a while. so sad. he was like .. MICHAEL JACKSON.
anyways, ima talk about my day. So i went to the vocal jazz bbq, Mr.Hemmerling drove me, dimple, thamie, jeff and kuya lorenz. or .. "sardines" "midget" "whiner" "the little ugly one" and "thamietan" LOL. we all have nicknames. well we were in Mr.hemmerling's car and we were just talking about anything and everything. its funny how me, thamie, dimple and jeff fit almost perfectly in the three seater thing. we so coo! (: then we got there and mrs.wahl was there before us and her and mrs.hemmerling were saying its cause he drives like an old man. LOL then we played the "im going on a trip.." game. it was HILARIOUS! the teachers couldnt get it. Then mrs.wahl came up with one. then people started coming so we started up the grill and we all sat in the sun room. MAN mr.hemmerling's house is the bombdigity. then gyan came and we started to eat. and dimple and yvanne were standing and then they got chairs and dimple was like "i was only standing because you were standing and i didnt want you to be alone" and then yvanne was like "SEE GYAN thats what friends do" and gyan was like "i dont have friends when im hungry" HAHAHA. then we were all talking .. jeff was being .. himself. LOL, after that we hung out in the living room. and we discovered that all the asians were seculded in one area, that made it feel awkward. but we were only in that room because the piano and guitar were there. LOL we started singing and stuff then me and gyan were going up and down the stairs and we were like "THERES MORE?!" then we went to the basement to watch the retirement video. i loooved it. good job james! (: then we just chilled there in the dark. LOL everyone decided to leave except 'us' (thats what im gonna prefer to when i mean the usuals) so we just chilled downstairs and sang. LOL after that we sang upstairs for mr.hemmerling and he started crying .. then there was a phone call and the people on the phone were all listening to us. LOL then people started leaving .. and i was going to leave with yvanne and we were all like about to go .. then mrs.wahl ran into the car. it was kinda awkward, she totally just went into the car, i bet bea and ace thought she was weird. LOL and we spent like 15 minutes just there in the hot sunlight. LOL and then on the way i found out that MICHAEL JACKSON DIED when yvanne was on the phone. sooo sad. ZOMG and ace is like 'dad ... im a kung fu master' HES SO CUTE. then i went home. and im planning to go to marjo's later . so chyeaah. i'll finish this later. maybe. i need to find something to wear for the convocation. im gonna be sad tomorrow. ): i'll prepare myself. so i'll ttyl.
Love.
arjaaah.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
I'm All About You.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 10:18 PM /
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"There’s somethin’ I’ve got to say
You’re always with me
Even though, you’re far away
Talkin to you on my cell
Just the sound of your voice
Makes my heart melt"
- Aaron Carter
I freaking miss talking to you
I freaking miss laughing at your jokes
I freaking miss just being there with you
I freaking miss YOU.
GET BACK IN MY LIFE,
Even though it's only been a while.
I kinda .. NEED YOU.
thats all, oh yeah .. today .. i watched the DMCI production of the Wiz. I made me miss you more for some reason, NOW thats all.
Love,
diasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
La La Land.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 9:18 PM /
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"Who said I can't wear my
Converse with my dress
Well, baby, that's just me
Who says I can't be single
And have to go out and mingle
Baby, that's not me"
- demi lovato
whats with me and disney songs lately? too much family channel/disney channel for me. I NEED A LIFE. haha
Well today, i set an alarm for 10 AM, but that was a fail. i fell asleep at 4 am last night, just watching russell peters over and over. LOL i can never get tired of it. at 11 jeff signed my wall on facebook and it sent to my phone and that woke me up. so it was all G, it was about finest tryouts. I tried out for it, it was really fun and a good experience. I doubt i made it, because i got nervous during the first routine marking session thing. LOL! i really didnt know the proper counts because i guess thats not the style of hip hop that i like! I liked the second routine that dave taught us, and i must say, dave is a really good choreographer! geeze louise. (: ZOMG during lyrical, everyone was all hot and sticky and we had to do some on the floor things. EW my leg was so sticky that it stuck to the ground! HAHAHA GROSS NASTY LARDO GRASSO. aw i miss cjay .. K well anyways, lyrical was pretty difficult. no offence but ms.maier doesnt .. how do you say this? explain it properly. like shes one of my favorite teachers and everything, buttuh you ask how you do it and shes like 'you just have to feel it' and in my mind im like 'what if you don't feel anything and you're too concetrated on what you're doing ?!' very very complicated. but shes cool no matter what. OH YEAH, my cousin was there. ew. HAHA. but he left randomly. thats all about him. kso after i went to dq with jeff, kuya lorenz, ate lamael and thamie. don't worry ate lamael .. "its gonna be alright in the end, if its not alright, its not the end" i love you (: then we went to thamie's house. AND dimple is my harry potter buddy! (: sweeeeeeeeet. its gonna be the bombdigity!
oh yeah, if you're wondering why 'converse with my dress' is bolded, its cause im gonna wear converse and a dress to the convocation. well actually no, im not gonna wear just that, i'll just change it later, im not that original. SO IS THAMIE, shes my converse and dress buddy! we coo, we coo! (:
OH MY GAAAAAASH PAMILIYA! i miss you guys, its only been .. not that long .. but YOU KEEP MY SANE, chill at least once a week this summer! kaay? k!
Love,
Didi
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
"I make the most of all the stress
I try to live without regrets
But I'm about to break a sweat
I'm freakin' out
It's like a poison in my brain
It's like a fog that blurs the scene
It's like a vine you cant untangle
I’m freakin' out
Everytime I turn around
Something don’t feel right"
- Jonas Brothers
THIS SONG ... is so annoying but its been playing on family channel all day, and its been stuck in my head. yes, i stayed home all day because i was too lazy to go out. and it was a really hot day. so .. hot + lazy = UBER LAZY. hahahah. been so freaking bored all day, i played finalfantasyx-2 and like .. its been good i accomplished a buncha things.. in the game. FRICK, i need a life. maybe i will try out for finest, i'll just randomly show up. LOL maybe .. just to hang out with people and not be a hermit. LOL i left my phone in my room all day, and i had almost a billion missed calls .. i was always late for all the calls. i answered my texts right away, because .. they're texts. LOL total fail. so yeah. and now im just watching russell peters, hes so funny. and it makes me less scared to be awake this late at night. maaan.. im already changing my sleep schedule and the school year didnt even end yet. FAIL x2.
I freaking miss you, but stop making me think.
Love always,
diasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Here We Go Again.
Monday, June 22, 2009 12:59 AM /
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"So how do you get here under my skin?
I swore that I’d never let you back in
Should have known better in trying to let you go,
Cause here we go, go, go again
Hard as I try, I know I can’t quit
Something about you is so addictive
We’re falling together;
You’d think that by now I’d know
Cause here we go, go, go again"
-demi lovato
kso, right now i wish there was school tomorrow. because i have NOTHING to do. everyone's gonna be doing something productive with their lives.
WANNA KNOW WHAT A REGULAR SEM 2 is like?! well you're gonna know anyways . it'd start off with putting my things, if i have anything, in gyan's locker and id go to my geo class and i'd talk to rina and kris about school work. then just randomly talk to arjel, rainer and james. I'd watch monique and matthew argue about random things. very entertaining. then as we wait for the bell to ring me and a buncha people would just wonder how the day would go. when the bell rings i'd walk with rina down the stairs i'd usually meet yvanne, jeff, dimple, kuya lorenz and ate carmel at the pamiliya locker. gyan would slowly make his way to us or meet us in the caf, or be the first one in the caf. we'd just randomly talk about things. Sometimes about God .. and gyan would always randomly go *sigh* "I love God" LOL amen to that! (: then when the third period bell rings me and gyan take our sweet time going to english. well its actually gyan who takes his sweet time, and im nice enough to stay and wait for him, even though he tells me to leave. But im always like "SHUT UP AND HURRY UP, im trying to be a nice friend, the teacher already knows im with you second period, so might as well get to class with you" so we get to class kinda late, sometimes just in time. the teacher just stares at us . hahaha. In class i'd just talk to amy, kim, rainer and arveen cause they're at my table. we'd just talk about how gay this subject is, or something like that. then we'd all wait at the door for the bell, i'd talk to arjel and he'd be mean to me. LOL jk .. just being gay .. like he usually is . LOL jk arjel you're cool. but yeah .. the bell would ring and i'd walk down the hall. i'd usually see jubs, moneck and amanda. then i'd get to chemistry i'd usually complain if its cold in the class room. then during the lesson me and gyan would sometimes randomly talk about things. sometimes during the times when we had subs we dont pay attention cause we dont get it. LOL then we'd get separated so we'd work in class. But i'd end up talking to lynel, camy, or yvanne first. Chem is actually the first time that i played ipod! (: kaay so after thaat i'd go to dance class then hang out with my group or nelli, christine, and chelsea or both. somtimes with kuya gino and them. i'd randomly try to copy what they're dancing too, cause i dont know any other choreo. im not much of a dancer but i try. LOL after that i'd put away my dance clothes in my locker and then head to choir or band. its basically the same but during band i'd wait really long to do anything cause mr.hemmerling takes his sweet time. in band me and gyan would have conversations and mr.hemmerling would tell us to shut up. in choir me and rina and yvanne would have conversations during the teachings or run throughs of songs. or i'd just randomly sit with the tenors and talk with all of them. HAHA. after that i'd spend my 15 minutes of freedom walking around the halls or in the chill room, or in the piano practice room .. or setting up the system for ice. then vocal jazz is same old same old, usually going over repitore, learning new songs, or rarely just listening to songs. after that i'd be with the pamiliya most days. sometimes we'd go to jeff's house. or kuya gino's house .. or mine. depends on how we feel. then i'd go home .. then thats my regular second sem day. oh how im gonna miss those days.
kso, i dont know how next years gonna go, please make it go good! im praying and praying!
Love,
arjaaah
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Shout to the Lord.
Sunday, June 21, 2009 10:37 PM /
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"My Jesus, My Savior,
Lord, there is none like You;
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love."
-Chris Tomlin.
Happy Fathers day. To everyone, especially my father, and my heavenly father <3 I know i haven't been to many yfc events lately, please forgive me. But i've been working on my own problems for a while now, its been working though. well partly. The decisions I made are kinda ehh, but i'll try and make it work. Maaan, i dont know why im so mad, i know why she cant come .. but .. im just really disappointed ): so im gonna pray for the best ..
Love,
ardiasarao.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Tonight, I love you.
1:07 PM /
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"Tell me the chance hasn't passed us by
Cause baby, the stars have never shined so bright
Nothing can stop us out here
Let's just take tonight, tonight slow
I want to see where this, where this goes
I need you"
- The Latency
kso, I HAVE THE BEST BLOGGER LAYOUT EVER (: hahaha just thought i'd say that. thaanks gyan (:
yesterday was the bombgidity. thats all i should say. I went to the ex w/ people. IT WAS SO FLIPPIN HOT. but it cooled after a while, the lines were so freaking long! holy crap! a bajillion hours just to get into one ride. I was in line with people to go on the fire ball, the one that goes in a circle, and ZOMG when we got to the front, the stupid ride broke, and we werent gonna stay there forever so we went on the scorpion .. I HATE SIPINNY RIDES! hahaha . but the hangglider thingy was pretty fun, but after a while it gets dizzy. haha, then we went to eat. WOK and ROLL baaaaby. hahaha . pretty goood if yuh ask me (: and i looove the lemonade! (: yeyuhhh! then we wanted to get inline to go on the crazy mouse, but .. it was too long! BUT i saw christelle! then kuya kersey and my camp counterpart! (: and other people! oh how i missed them so, but not my cousin .. HAHA. then we went on the pharaoh ship thing .. HOLY CRAP it was so scary .. we got both ends, girls on one, guys on the other, and OMG it was so scary .. i thought i was gonna die! HAHA. then the last ride i went on was the crazy mouse! whooooot! haha lalalooove it! (: My parents went to mcdonalds before we went home, and i saw ate benn (: I saw so many people at the yesterday! its kinda like a reunionish, kinda thing, but not really. i just thought it was s0o0o cool how many people i've seen. (:
k, its fathers day today, so im busy .. PAMILIYA, water you doing monday? CALL ME UP, or just come over. i have nothing to do, i'll be home alone..
Love.
ardia
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Beside You.
Saturday, June 20, 2009 1:48 AM /
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"Tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you"
- Marianas Trench
ZOMG cant wait until their concert later on tonight! (:
Today, I woke up kinda late, because i didnt get home until 11 the night before because i was watching 'Up' when my 'bodyguards'. LOL "today, she had two guys on each side of her, we were her body guards." Well yeah, i woke up and helped chill set up for their last performance .. and i just gotta say .. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL! im not even lying. I also came there to support them and hemmerling, since its his last offical dmci teacher performance. he made a speech and people were crying .. and i surprisingly was laughing at everyone crying. I shed a few tears, but not alot! (: hahah. I love you guys! After that, I went to kuya gino's house and i was watching everyone scramble around to get ready for grad, pretty entertaining if you ask me. Then around 1 i went home, ate, and then fell asleep .. FOR FIVE HOURS. lol, that reminds me "ardia, why are you here? you look so tired .. you should go home and sleep" and im like "no, im here to support! (:" LMAO im cool, im cool! (: I actually woke up to my dad asking me to go to the ex tonight. then we did, i only went on a few rides because my sisters a KJ and doesnt wanna go on rides. and going on a ride alone is so boring. CANT WAIT UNTIL I GO WITH EVERYONE! its gonna be THE BEST!
hmm, i have plenty of time, i actually have all night, so i dont know what im gonna do. should i randomly talk about things. oh yeah .. IM LOST, i cant find my archive.. like on my page. so annoying, i'll figure it out .. some how... hopefully. OR i wanna make it look cool. I have all the time in the world, well not really .. its just a figure of speech.
kso, im pretty sad its the end of this year. two sad years in a row, like .. grade 9 was pretty sad cause; HELLO we're all going to different schools and stuff, find new cliques. blahblahblah. this year is different. I've had friends, close friends. BUT these are the friends that are like FAMILY. seriously. i didnt abandon my other friends, its just that they have their interests and i have mine. I try to hang out with them whenever possible, but It's kinda hard. I cant always go with my schedule or theirs. I know I should try harder, but i dont wanna over do it. kso, this year, I've made so many new friends. or just extended my chain of friends. I've basically met new 'family' cause my cousins got married last year and i found 'relatives' haha angela and ate lamael <3 i've become more aquainted with my musical sides when im with those friends. we're so cool, we sing choir songs when we're not even in choir 8) theres also the fact, im practically the youngest in the pamiliya, and they're ALL older then me. I've only had an older sister, shes been there for me and stuff, but now shes gone. There WAS a void, since i met the pamiliya, the void is filled, and over flowed! in a good way! im never lonely anymore! they all live semi-near me. minus some people, but i can always find a way to their home! (: I can always just give them a call, they've all be to my house. its not hard to miss. LOL not really. but chyeaah .. you can't ever leave me. "didi is everyone's favorite" :D hahaha k, sargentparkers, i know i havent tried hard enough to hang out with you guys. you know i love you guys. WE HAVE TO FRICKING CHILL. im not even lying, i'll probably get introuble for being out too much during the summer, but its all G, as much as i have alot of friends, you guys made me who i am today. FRICKING CALL ME UP! (: k? k! (: alriight now, on to something more serious. actually no, not really. on second though, no i take it back . nothing serious. I just need a job now. it may look like I have money, but i dont. HA. thats basically it, wow i overthink things too much. LOL ALSO, i miss you. i know its been like .. only a day since we've actually spoken. but, yeah, its been a pretty boring day. sooo .. yeah. k i think im tired now, so i'll re-enter tomorrow. and i'll have an extra long one! (:
Love,
arjaaah, ardidi, didi, jah, ardingding, ardiacandicecabalsarao (:
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
How Shall I See You Through My Tears?
Friday, June 19, 2009 12:00 AM /
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"Father sister,
the God's have spoken
bring a promise
a holy vow"
- DMCI concert choir 08-09
TODAY, many things happened. I woke up by a text message this morning, dimple wanted to come over and study here because the library is closed. so i just hung out with her the whole morning until we had to go to school, for me to go help put things away, and for dimple to go to her exam. i met up with people and we went to dq and then again, to my house. after that we went straight to the church to get our recordings done. after that we went to mcdonalds. I convinced jeff to bring me to watch up! (: so we went to kuya gino's after and bussed to polo. We helped ate praisia pick out shoes for her dress. AND we went to find gyan and .. i was calling him from the top floor of polo .. and he found kuya gino first. FAIL. hahaha . then we went to watch UP! yaaaay! I LOVE THAT MOVIE! I LOVE RUSSELL! (: my faaav! for ever and ever! (:
kso, i wanna be at chill's performance tomorrow. So i need my sleep. i'll be less rushed someother time.
Love,
ardidi (:
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
1000 words.
Thursday, June 18, 2009 2:55 AM /
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"I know that you're hiding things
using gentle words to shelter me
your words were like a dream
but dreams could never fool me...
Not that easily"
- Yuna (final fantasy x-2)
kso, its almost three in the morning and im just thinking. like straight up thinking. about anything. but yenno what crossed my mind right now? its not gonna be the same. I know the only constant thing in life is change .. but, why so fast? boo. I know that even if it lasted longer i'd probably say the same thing.
WELL today- .. pardon me .. yesterday, I had my last exam of the year. Pretty happy about it. But it sucks cause theres nothing to do anymore. Not even 'attempt' to study for anything. I tired playing Final Fantasy, but i noticed how sucky i am right now, i'll just restart the whole game and train and stuff more. LOL. ALSO i watched ate Praisia's cotillion practice, and i realized how much i enjoy dance. just by watching it inspired me, maybe I will try out for finest? perhaps .. i dont know. apparently i pick up choreo at a fast pace. i hope thats right. I hope im making the right decisions.
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Everytime I Close My Eyes.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 1:54 AM /
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"And every time I close my eyes
I thank the Lord that I've Got you.."
- Aj Rafael, Albert Posis, Mark Meija (Babyface cover)
When I see you in the hallways, I want you to say hello
cause I made an effort to make sure I'd see you in that hallway
When I am quiet, I want you to converse with me
cause that's all I really want
When I tell you I'm not in the mood, I want you to make me smile
though, just being with you makes me smile
When I call you don't just hang up, I want to argue who's gonna hang up first
cause it'll give me an excuse to talk to you longer
When I am singing, I want you to sing along with me
it makes everything much more enjoyable
When I say hello, don't nod back
cause it makes me feel like im not worth even a 'hi'
When I give you a hug, don't give me one armed hugs
cause its like, you don't care
When I take something from you, I want you to converse with me about it
so we'll have something to talk about when you call me
When you tell me I'm awesome, the best, or cool. It makes me all happy inside
cause you acknowledge my existance
When you give me a full hug, I never wanna let go
cause you make me happy
When you make an effort to talk to me It makes me feel that I'm wanted in your life
cause all I wanna do is talk to you
When you ask me "where were you?", I feel that you care
and makes our friendship grow a little more each time
When you listen to what I say, makes me happy
cause I do have alot to say, believe it or not
When you'll ask me if this is about you, I'll probably deny it
cause I want you to find out for yourself
I wanna be the person you go to when you're mad, just to put a smile on your face.
I wanna be the one gets a call from you in the morning, so i can wake up to your voice.
I wanna be thankful that we have each other
I wanna be truthful to you, so we won't have any secrets whatsoever
I wanna be your baby, honey, sweetheart ..
.... I just wanna be with you ....
I'm happiest with you, lost without you. Is what my heart tells me incorrect? I'm positive that I've fallin for you . please don't let me be wrong again ..
something I was reading that I wrote about .. 9 months ago .. so funny, how its for the same person. Just thought i'd say that, cause i have and exam in the afternoon tomorrow and I probably wont see him tomorrow. and i'll obviously miss him. ew k gross, i dont like taking about him like this unless im in the mood. Kso, i should sleep now its 2 AM. how come all i can think about is you?..
Love,
diasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Statue.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009 8:43 PM /
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"Every single day of my life I thank my lucky stars,
God really had to spend extra time, when he sculptured your heart.
Cause theres no explanation, can't solve the equation
It's like you love me more than I love myself."
- lil eddie.
geeeze this has been in my head since chamber choir! LOL its not a bad thing, I like this song alot!. no wait I LOVE THIS SONG because music .. HAHA jokes laaang, grade 10 insider. (we did an english exam on music) kso about my day .. it was all exam actually .. i woke up, got ready and went to school for the english exam, i took the exam and there was a story .. the nightingale, i thought it was a pretty good story .. but kinda long. it was like what, 5 pages?! and there was like what? 4 questions? not even one for each page. LOL. k anyways, after the exam i went with jeff to go to yvanne in the library. then we went to my home and just chilled there. after i had my chemistry exam. HOLY CRAP was it easier then i thought it would be. If the enriched class had to fill in ALL the questions, i'd be screwed, good thing the teacher changed it. I finished SO EARLY, but I didnt leave until about 2:45. Then chamber choir, just went over the two songs we may record. Then we went to kuya gino's house. then chyeahh, i went home and fell asleep. LOL
kso, everything is coming together pretty well. hopefully it'll be good soon.
so very randomly but in conclusion , i'd like to say, or just wonder.. is it bad that i don't miss it?
Love,
ardiasarao.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Deeply In Love.
Monday, June 15, 2009 4:54 PM /
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"in my life, you've heard me say I love you
how do I show you its true?
Hear my heart it longs for more of you
I've fallen deeply in love with you"
- Hillsong United .
DIMPLE && GYAN lets record a cover! a REAL ONE (: okaay? okaay. kso, i should be studying right now, im taking a break, but its only been about an hour of studying, chem and english exam tomorrow. scared, cause today .. i didnt go to all my classes but geo. so sad. BUT lemme tell you about my day (:
first period, i went to class .. then second period was my house w/ second period people. i went to school before third period to find someone to give my english homework and i found rainer (: haha. urgh, english exam tomorrow in the morning, hope im ready for it. anyways .. i didnt go to english. the only people at my house were ate carmel, gyan and dimple. just watched kim possible and the weekenders. then thamie and kuya lorenz came. we all got tired .. and decided to go to school for fourth period. THEN we found out that we didnt need to be in fourth period so almost the whole pamilia went to mcdonalds. and HOLY CRAP is it hot outside. i thought I was gonna die. LOL gyan .. you bad child. then we got there it was totally full! i saw jaysen there. LOL ate benn thought it was gyan. then we found a good big spot. yaaay. we had conversations about the Ex!! yaaay 20th errrrbody! LETS GO ON ALL THE RIDES! (: yaaay. then they started talking about basketball .. me and jeff had no idea what everyone was talking about . HAHA yaay for being very naive about it! then .. when i finally checked the time, it was 5th period, and I ended up not going to class anyways. We did locker clean up, we cleaned up the pamilia locker, i barely used it, cause there was so many things in there already. LOL mostly sam's though xD then kuya lorenz locked me in the locker, mean child. but yvanne saved me (: lalalooove you! kanyways, didnt go to fifth. and there was no sixth period class .. so just hung out with people .. took pictures w/ the pamilia locker. hahaha! then yeah, hung out during chill practice, sang along .. blahblahblah .. then ice meeting. After I went with jewelry and yvanne to Dairy Q, or D Queen. LOL then yeah im here. NOW GOOD BYE for now, i have to study. Blogger stop being a nusience to me, YOU'RE SO ADDICTIVE. urghhh.
OH! btw, today was purple day. k thats all
Love,
arjaaah
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Hot.
Sunday, June 14, 2009 11:24 PM /
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"I wanna lock you up in my closet
when no ones around
I wanna put your hand in my pocket
because your aloud
I wanna drive you into the corner
and kiss you without a sound"
- Avril lavigne
HOLY CRAP IS IT EVER HOT IN HERE?! seriously. thats actually the only reason i have that title. im like ... sweating like a pig here. but God bless the FINALLY summer-ish weather. So last official school day tomorrow. I dont know whats happening for spare. I dont even know whats happening for classes. so annoying. maybe errbody go to my house for spare? ICE CREAM?! haha jk. i dont have ice, sad as it is.
MAAAN i barely did anything today, I answered some of my geo things. Finished my English reflection, attempted my chem. thats basically it, not to mention I started reading twilight again. Then I watched the movie when I got bored of reading it, AND i also watched love guru AGAIN, and 'another cinderella story'. SERIOUSLY, i need to get a life. actually .. this is the most time i spent at home. oh my gulay, I told you home was boring. I was planning to play finalfantasy today, but I didnt wanna go through all the trouble by bringing my tv, that is MINE, back into my room after long months without it. Theres also the fact that I've have to haul in my playstation w/ the game. booo, too much effort, man i act to fat for my weight. I need to act not fat. TIME TO WORK OUT. ima make a summer to-do list. okay? okay. hopefully im gonna pass chemistry. PLEASE HELP ME PASS. maybe i'll do an all nighter today. perhaps, maybe I dont know. Mr.hemmerling owes me and gyan a lunch, maybe we should use it soon. OR during the week of school where .. theres barely any school. so many options.
PAMILIA, the Ex soon? maybe not saturday .. people may have work. holy crap, you guys all have jobs. oh well, more hanging out with people for me. HAHAHA jkjk. DONT LEAVE ME OUT OF ANYTHING! please (: okay love you guys! <3 sistaaahs && bruuudahs, SLEEPOVER && BONFIRE, just like jessica said. IM SO DOWN, camp revelation-ers .. I MISS YOU, i miss the service team, i miss my participants, i miss my leader partner, i miss my counterpart, i miss EVERYONE! as you see, im killing time that i should be working on my chemistry. I think the geo is straight forward, so chyeah, grade 11 things are so much more complex and require so much more thinking the needed. Oh wow ,, chemistry just started playing .. how gay .. its a sign, LOL kbye
Peace, Love, and God Bless,
arjaaah
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
"We are a family like a giant tree
branching out towards the sky,
we are a family
we are so much more than just you and I
we are a family like a giant tree,
growing stronger, growing wiser,
we are growing free
we need you, we are a family.."
- Dreamgirls.
first of all .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUSTINE && JOYCE. sorry i couldnt attend your party joyce, i love you lots though!
Today has been the most time i've spent with my family since forever. I Praise God for answering my biggest prayer at Camp Rock. Thats right, it has been answered! He's been working on me for quite a bit. Last night I said I'd pray hard. I did, and I read the bible, and have i mentioned how much I LOVE to read Psalms? cause I do. I know what I've been stressing so much about and im trying to do something about it. AHHHH! im so blessed! I LOVE GOD! (: Totally Uberly Happy! yaaaaay! Praise The LORD! <3 face="arial">Love,
ardiacandicesarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Take A Breath.
Friday, June 12, 2009 11:08 PM /
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"Worlds are spinning 'round.
There's no sign of slowing down.
So won't you take a breath?
Just take a breath.
People change and promises are broken.
Clouds can move and skies will be wide open.
Don't forget to take a breath."
- Jonas Brothers.
kso, I was never so stressed until today. Everything is hitting me all at once, except that its not about school. Its never been at school lately. Its life in general! I dont even understand it. Things that wouldnt usually bother me, are pissing me off so badly, I'm over thinking everything. I can't stand being home and not doing anything, and I quote, "I hate having nothing to do, It gets me thinking." squall leonheart from Final Fantast 8. oh how i miss playing that game. but seriously, i HATE having nothing to do. I am NOT gonna last during the summer. Apparently im already not in the house enough. but when i am here no one does ANYTHING. theres just something about being home is boring. holy crap .. im so bitchy right now .. i DONT KNOW WHY .. its pissing me off so badly .. I need to pray, pray hard. Lord help me .. I need you now.
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Bitch song.
8:41 PM /
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"Is it okay if I speak to you today
You've been pissed off for a week now
With nothing I could say
Could make you look up or crack up
Is there anything that I can do
Anything to show you...
You're a bitch, but I love you anyway
Oh, You can't sing
But you still put me to sleep
Baby,You're a bitch
Hey hey hey hey
You make me sick
But don't ever go away"
- Bowling for soup
hello world, welcome to my bitch day. no reason what so ever, but i think im pmsing. i havent pms-ed for a while. too much stress, so im probably getting it soon. but i just wanted to ask .. WHY YOU PULLING BITCH?! and .. i'll just leave it at that cause they know who they are.
I'll lighten up later .. and blog about it. so .. i'll be back
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Who Will I Be.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009 10:04 PM /
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"How to choose
Who to be
Well lets see
There's so many choices now
Play guitar
Be a movie star"
- Demi Lovato (camp rock)
First of all, I just like to say HAPPY BIRTHDY ATE BENN! I LOVE YOU <3
kaay, anyways on to business. I didn't blog last yesterday, so tired and felt kinda sick. But yesterday was the piano/vocal recital. and I hung out with souldefy the whole time after school and before the recital. then chocolate milk and cookies! yaaaay! (:
today, I woke up from a phone call.
"where are you?"
at home ..
"how come?"
i lost my voice
"what?"
i lost my voice
"huh??"
I LOST MY VOICE
"oh, well come to school we're having a party in the mpr for venice."
okay .. i'll be there soon
"kbye"
thats how it went. LOL. apparently I didnt miss alot in geo. so its all good. I actually went to school for the exam, im so almost done. EXAMS are sooon, I shouldnt even be on this right now. blah .. nothingness for the most of it. Dance recital today. went pretty well. awuh, ssome people's last dmci dance recital. blah im tired.
P.S, please stay.
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Tell Me Something I Don't know.
Monday, June 8, 2009 10:38 PM /
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"Everybody tells me I don't know what I'm doing,
This life I'm pursuing,
The odds of me loosing.
Everybody tells me that it's one in a million,
More like one in a billion,
Or one in a zillion.
I hear it everyday,
I hear it all the time,
I'm never gunna amount to much,
But they're never gunna change my mind."
- Selena Gomez (another Cinderella story)
Just thought I'd say this cause it came along ..
"What's on your mind?" says the facebook thinger where you change your status. YOU WANNA KNOW WHATS ON MY MIND?! .... everything!!!!!!!!!!! its not just school .. its EVERYTHING @$%#! why is everything so hard?! maan .. this sucks. I'm not this skilled .. to juggle a billion things at once. this is like an emotional sanwich .. it started off GAY, middle was better, then now its gay again. I'm gonna Pray for tomorrow to be better. Please be better.
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Showstopper.
7:22 PM /
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"you make my dreams come true
and I love all the small things that you do,
like blink 182
you make my days go better
and the way that the sun is shining
through its all because of you"
- AJ Rafael
I woke up in the most pissy mood anyone could ever be in. seriously. I have no idea why, and i decided to dress in my emo clothes .. cause i havent wore them in a while, so chyyeah, nothing of it, I just thought I'd say that. I'm actually caught up in my work, im trying to finish the chem review, so yenno .. i could pass grade 11 enriched chem. but then again, im only in grade 10, I could always take it again, but thats If i survive the yelling and screaming going on if I don't pass a class. so .. its a win-lose situation, and the one i strive for is obviously the win situation. oh yeah, carring on .. my day was alright i guess .. cause 'he made my day go better' past tense of the bold in the begining lyric. 0o0o connection. sweeet. HAHA jk. anyways .. had the first part of the english exam, its about music. yaaaay. I just need to think of ways to write the essay, because i want my essay to stand out, and to show that music really is MY life. hence all the titles of my blog entries being titles of songs and stating part of the lyrics at the beginning of the post. LOL just a little insider, I thought you should know.
hmm .. recital tomorrow, I dont have to do it, im not ready, i already SUCKED at the last one, cause i barely had a voice last sem. If I do it, i may make a fool of my self again, but im not even gonna go to vocal jazz camp, well thats what I think i've decided, I could always make another decision, but it has to be before tomorrow, SO i'll keep practicing the song that i might do, I didn't even practice with the teacher. so i dont even know if he'll even be ready. I can't take this anymore .. urgh this is too much to handle in one semester. maan next school year will be hectic, i may have a job, and i'll be in vocal jazz and most likely, be in the musical that is going to be held (but isnt supposed to be held) next year. wanna see my 'plans' for next year? well you have no choice cause im telling you anyways. && not in any specific order.
SEM ONE:
Dance(?)
Phys Ed. 30S
English 30S
choir/MAYBE band
Precal 30S
Physics. 30S
SEM TWO:
Psycology 40S
Bio 30S
Precal 40S
Choir/MAYBE band
History 30S
English 40S (?)
How about Grade 12 year? okay here .. :
SEM ONE:
Physics 40S
Bio 40S
Choir
English 40S (if not in the grade 11 year or i'll take the second non-manditory credit)
SEM TWO:
Phys Ed. 40S
Chem 40S
English 40S (second non-manditory Credit)
Choir
Just thought I'd leave a little rough outline of what im going to take throughout my highschool years. Hopefully it'll be good. and duh im taking Vocal jazz each year, once im in ice .. i dont think i can quit, cause she has high hopes of me. thats what i think, and i may not take dance, which'll make the Dance teacher mad, booo. THAT REMINDS ME, dance recital wednesday. booo . well whatever .. i should start studying and stuff .. kbye (:
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
nonsense.
Sunday, June 7, 2009 11:06 PM /
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"no matter what i did no matter what i said
it doesnt matter know,youve gotta figure it out
we can continue on such non-sense to fill the days
and we wont speak of ugly things
but when these lyrics come out youll scream at me"
- cursive.
I didn't have a title to put, so I put nonsense. I wondered if there was an actual song called it, so I searched it up and there actually was. Funny thing is, i didn't even listen to it, i just posted part of the lyric up. and here there it is. its pretty .. graphic. but whatever..
ONCE AGAIN, no life, cooped up in my room, cause theres nothing better to do. what is this? my fourth post of the day? pathetic! IM SO MAD RIGHT NOW. seriously. I don't wanna go to vocal jazz camp anymore, I'm gonna just stay home and do nothing. I'll make an excuse. I know I'm gonna regret it later. I assure you I will, but .. I don't know .. everything is coming too fast.
seriously, I wish I had the power to control time, but its useless to wish. I'm praying.. Praying hard, because .. I can't take this pain .. again. Lord, help me, take me, heal me, and lead me to the right path.
P.U.S.H
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Love Takes Time.
8:20 PM /
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"Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain
Inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be there
i don't wanna be there
alone"
-Mariah Carey
CLEARLY, i have no life, i spent the majority of the day eating, watching TV, and cleaning. weird combination but .. thats what I did, this is like .. whhat? my third blog of the day? i would say i need to get out more, but .. thats the reason im here, im out TOO much.. boooo. this isnt for long anywaays, so i have to suck it up. then partaaay! hahaha jk jk
PAMILIA! LETS GO TO THE EX TOGETHER! <3 thats all .. kbye (:
Love,
diasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Reminisce.
10:38 AM /
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"baby boy all I do is think of you
all the times that we spent and my dreams comes true
reminiscin' bout the past and the future too
you know yer feelin me (and I'm feelin you)"
-deestylistic
kaay well, im doing better than yesterday, just not much better. I was awake until 2 just .. lying on my bed thinking. so many different scenarios and possiblities for things. so annoying. yesterday i had a one on one .. on one on one. LOL pretty intense stuff, things i didnt know before, but i cant second think things. cause if i do, it may lead me to question my faith, but I KNOW now that He is Lord and He will not let me doubt my faith. But it doesnt hurt to be a little more careful.
.. Remember when you used to tell me you loved me? even at the end of every sentance? remember when .. I thought you were the one for me? yenno, sometimes I miss that. I just thought i'd say, cause I guess you can say I miss 'us' .. at times. I guess this is the kind of time. I just had time to think, and you just randomly came up, because yenno .. im a random person. its funny how I have so many opportunites to talk to you, but I dont even try. But i remember how you used to play with my knuckles a certain way when we held hands, how I used to just love being with you every moment of everyday, and when you werent around I'd text you to see what you're doing and you'd do the same. But its for the best right? its not that it was wrong to do that, but we're just not meant to be, i guess.
Its not that im resorting back to this cause that other person is confusing me. which they are. I just .. dont want to interfere. He's already busy as it is. even if i were to get with him, he may not have time for me, which im perfectly fine with .. like i know how busy he is, but I just want him to know so many things .. I wish he was mine, hes not an object or anything. But im a jealous girl, i know its bad, i've been trying to stop it lately, but im only human. all i can do is hide it, its been working lately, but now i dont think he thinks i like him. but i dont even know if he knows i like him anyways, but it seemed like it in the beginning. URGH why do guys have to be confusing?
saaaaaaaaaaargent park, oh how i miss thee. hanging out with our uberly big group. HAHA moneck 'popular weirdos'. a clique that we named ourselves, cause yenno .. there was .. the fobs, the jocks, the nerds, the outsiders/loners .. then there was us . the popular weirdos. i can honestly say that we were the largest. oh and you may ask .. what bout the musical people? WELL .. most of us were in music, only because in the eighth grade there was the music trip, and in the ninth grade we joined for the 1/2 credit. for i guess .. a 1/2 head start, so chhhyeahhh. I tried too hard in junior high to be a jock, i joined cross country, volleyball, track and basketball in the seventh grade. I SUCKED.. so badly. hahah . then in the eigth grade .. i joined those again, but i became a manager for track and field, so i went without actually participating, but its so much harder being a manager. I have to be organized and stuff. thank God kim was there to pull me through. k .. that was grade 8 year, grade 9 year .. i was a manager for cross country .. same old same old, volleyball, i became a score keeper, then i tried out for basketball, i didnt make the team, apparently someone had a say in it and i wasnt 'good enough' .. but anyways i got cut, and i became a basket ball scorekeeper, 'apparently' i was the 'mom' of everyone, cause i was so organized, and i must say, i was one of the best. I had to do a WHOLE GAME doing paper and score clock, pretty intense, good thing sargent doesnt have shot clocks. and yeah .. i guess i was so much better with being a scorekeeper, it got me involved in the game without actually playing, but i missed playing. After scorekeeping , i knew all the rules and everything. I even learned the signals for EVERYTHING. oh how i loved it. then track and field came once again, I really .. didnt have that much fun, because the grade 8ers were ... totall jonzes. they forget to do something .. and i get blamed for it. but chyeahh .. we pulled through .. i guess. I miss the grade 9 managing team .. Murt and jers and me. <3>
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Dreaming With A Broken Heart.
Saturday, June 6, 2009 11:15 PM /
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"When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone...."
- John Mayer
sometimes, theres no one but Him to talk to. When you feel alone, secluded, and depressed. Its better then being emo and cutting youself. Just pray. But sometimes, theres no greater pain then heartbreak. I dont know how to describe it.. a broken heart .. is worse then physical pain. yes, WORSE.
im not saying im heartbroken or anything, just thought i'd share that, because for some reason. im in that kind of mood. I dont know if its a good or bad thing. Cause i actually thought i didnt have any feelings at one point, because i was always so happy. being sad.. THIS way is a change. but now that i feel it .. i dont like it .. one bit, im really dumb sometimes .. and to think of 'it' it is pretty whack. seriously
OHHH, i remember why i first got pissed of now .. my dad was giving me shit about school, when he doesnt even know whats happening. he always fucking expects the worse, and YOU KNOW WHAT, you may get the worst, because you've been badgering me about it for YEARS. like seriously .. IM NOT GONNA END UP LIKE WHAT YOU EXPECT, cause you always expect the worse from me .. THATS WHY IM NEVER HOME. fuck. you're gonna make me QUIT YFC?! thats not possible, I CANT quit that. God is with me all the time. is it my fault you became practically an atheist after someone called you a bad influence? like FUCK, maybe thats why im like this. out of everything, why cant you support me with yfc? like seriously .. you push me in music, but you're not even that good. so stop judging me in everything i do.
URGH .. im so mad right now. go away ...
Love,
ardiasarao.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Good to you.
8:08 PM /
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"you be good to me
And I'll be so good to you"
- marianas trench
How gay. Just seeing that made me feel the pain. You know I'm always here for you.
Anyways here right now at eldrins birthday party, watching another Cinderella story. The one with selena gomez. I wonder how this blog will turn out, this is my first blog on my itouch. And I'm on the HTML editor thing, cause for some apparent reason it won't let me type on the regular one. I learned that today haha.
Urgh, oh how I miss everyone from anywhere. Like I miss camp people alot, I miss yfc people I haven't seen in a while, I miss friends I've failed to hang out with throughout the year, and yenno what's funny, I miss the pamilia, though I was just with them yesterday. Hahaha!
That's all kbye
Love,
Diiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Going Crazy.
12:10 PM /
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"I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true, no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down"
- Natalie
how come i miss you so much? it's never occurred to me, but i COULD be in love? but how would i know how it feels like. When i get attached .. i GET ATTACHED. im not hooked, or whipped, of whatever people call it. just attached.
urgh, this is so cliche, but i miss you all the time, even when you're gone, because i know you're gonna have to go eventually.
Booo, i wish you were mine.
Love,
diasarao.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
My Heart Will go on.
Friday, June 5, 2009 11:06 PM /
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"You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on"
- Celine Dion
today was s0o0o00o0o fun! lalaloooved it, honor choir all day and hung out with the sisler people at the end and played games! (: then sang sweet sweet spirit, yaaaaay! after that i went to polo with dimple and thamie to wait for the others to come. we waited then.. me, gyan, ate lamael, thamie and ate praisia went to silver and watched the Night At The Museum 2! I LOVED IT! urghh ... so awesome .. or .. aweTHome hahahaha!
wooonderful day, eldrins birthday tomorrow!, finish this later, im tired ..
PISSS. hahaah
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
T-shirt.
Thursday, June 4, 2009 11:43 PM /
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"nothing feels right when im not with you,
sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool,
trying to dress up when im missing you.
ima step out of this lingerie,
curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
in bed i lay, with nothing but your T-shirt on."
-Shontelle.
i take back what i said, no FML, i should be happy i have this kind of life because God has given it to me. I'm sorry for saying those kinda things..
BUT thats not what i wanna talk about take note, once again, my mom LOOOVES dmci, im not even kidding ask ANYONE, like its changed me, for the better. exept the fact that im alwasys out of the house with the pamilia, but my mom loves them, like seriously, she 'adopted' every one of my friends that i hang out with. LOL shes like "tell them they're my adopted children" HAHAAH hilarious. my mom is so cool 8) but .. i wasnt allowed out today, too much 'gala gala' she said but i caught up on some sleep. hahaha .. three hours of it (: sweeeeeeeeeeeet.
booo, last offcial ice practice of ice 2008-2009. BUT we still have performances together! yaaaaay!
"When you're a performer, there is no such thing as a last performance"
- Gino Yso <3
Love,
diasarao.
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Vindicated.
4:50 PM /
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"I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
I swear a I knew it all along.."
- Dashboard confessional.
two tests over with. happy .. ish ..
FML FML FML i wanted to watch Up with some of the pamilia. im effin broke! URGH.. I need an effin job, FML FML FML.
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Fix you.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009 11:42 PM /
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"Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes"
- Honor Choir 08-09 O.G Coldplay.
gaaaaaaaaaaaaah, as if its almost over, i dont want it to be.. but right now i need rest, i have to wake up early to study at school. I left my binder there .. how smart of me -__-" a test and two assignments. boooo . FAIL!
Great job DMCice, DMC chill, DMCI's Finest! I love you guys! you'll always be in my heart! <3
Love,
arjaaah
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
In my life.
12:08 AM /
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"There are places I'll remember
All my life, though some have changed
some forever not better
some have gone and some remain ...
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When i think of love as something new"
-- DMCice vocal jazz 08-09
Dedicated to DMCice 2008-09.
Right now its pretty late, I should get rest for Take Note, but I cant sleep right now. Today is the LAST performance of DMCice 2008-09. you guys .. are so precious to me. my first year at dmci .. i totally thought i wasn't going to make it anywhere in this, you proved me wrong. I've bonded with you guys, and you guys are like family to me now. I don't want you guys to leave. But I can only wish. I'm so blessed to have met you guys and have been apart of your life, as much as you were apart of mine. I'm sad the year is ending, I wish I could stop time and live in this glory for a little bit longer with you guys. I'm praying for the friendships made throughout the duration of this year to grow stronger and stronger every second we're together. I love you guys, thank you for a wonderful first year. Thank you so much. You guys will always be in my prayers.
DMCice 2008-2009
Director: Mrs.Cynthia Peyson-Wahl
Sopranos: Nelsa Limuaco, Yvanne Dandan, Jessica Smith, Briana Smith
Altos: Venice Tamayo, Angela Grospe, Jewelry Estacio, Kayla Leonardo
Tenors: Ardia Sarao, David Nguyen, Warren Macalino
Basses: Elven Hansana, James Campbell.
Rep; Sweet Sweet Spirit, Sesame Street Blues, In My Life, Don't You Worry, Comes Love, El Paisanito, Accapella In Acappolco, Gota
Love, forever and always,
arjaaah
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
We match.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009 10:21 PM /
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"You and I we both know,
We match in ways that they'll never know.
You make me feel,
You make me feel,
That everything is going right,
That I can go to sleep tonight,
Oh and awake to find you here.
You make me feel,
That everything is going right,
That I can do to sleep tonight,
And wake up to your voice, down, blankets and pillows."
- Gabe Bondoc
everyone sees it.
we match.
Love,
Diasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Everyday People.
6:22 PM /
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"Sometimes I'm right and I can be wrong
My own beliefs are in my song
A Blue one, a pink one, a purple and brown,
Makes no difference what group I'm in
I am everyday people"
--smarties commercial.
ahhhhhhh, busy daay! even though it was half day. though it was busy, it felt really chill. went to school, blahblah, ice and finest performed at the career internship thing, then got pizza right after. we all went to ate laams house. and watched russell peters! yeyahh! hahaha! its so hilarious. but the others had to leave for finest practice, TAKE NOTE TOMORROW!
on the other hand, i was kinda .. bored-ish .. not with the people like .. the lack of people .. or person, with me. cause.. i dont know .. its like you get used to having them around most of the time, and when they're not there it seems kinda empty. its so gay, and VERY cliche but .. i miss you when you're not around. though i tell you that i can't stand you, you make my day, just by being there.
I'm in like with you.
Love,
diasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
From The Inside Out.
Monday, June 1, 2009 10:58 PM /
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"A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace"
-hillsong.
Just wanted to say, I love God! He loves me no matter what I do or say, and I take advantage of
his love without knowing. I'm truely sorry, and forever faithful to you, because You are the
Lord. I love you (:
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥
Until your mine.
9:16 PM /
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"Until you're mine
I have to find
A way to fill this hole inside
I've got to fight
Without you here by my side
Until you're mine
Not gonna be even close to complete"
- Demi Lovato
hmm .. i just used that song, cause i was at michael's house FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIKE 11 MONTHS! holy crap, i missed that guy and his family. im so happy i got to hang out with him .. i never hung out with him since like .. his birthday. holy crap man, but it was same old, same old. still a 'smart jock' (: lalaloove you. LOL but im already introuble for going out too much. but its not my fault that theres NOTHING to do at home, and like being home makes me uberly bored. like seriously .. theres nothing better to do but hang out with my friends. geeeeze, nothing personal, but i'd rather hang out with them. saaaalllllll gravy though, im trying to equalize my time w/ everyone. my 'active friends' as kuya lorenz likes to call it, are well .. the ones i hang out with the most. so chhhhyeaah. im tired, half day tomorrow, and performance. then take note on wednesday. COME WATCH! im the girl in the guy's uniform in the back, actually no .. for the song we're singing everyone is scene. yaaaay! lalalooove it! (:
Love,
ardiasarao
Peace,Love & Harmony,
arjaaah♥